Lost... Completely...

I feel like a walking zombie.
I thought the worst was over.
Never knew things could get worse.
Worse than losing someone you love is losing your own self.

I am lost, now more than ever.
I keep looking up to God to give me something to move on...
It has been over a week and still nothing...
I don't know who I am, what I want, where I would like to go, how I wish my life would be.
I am lost. Totally and completely lost.
I feel like my life is at a dead-end.
I can't relate to feelings; sad, happy, love, anger, optimism, cynicism, hope, faith; all seem ambiguous...
My life seems ambiguous...

The only thing I feel is this empty space in my head and my heart; an empty space that weighs more than I can carry...

The only thing I see is a routine and a plan that I stick to for reasons I have stopped comprehending.

The only thing I hear is sound; no more music or melody.

The only people whom I care for are those close to me. Even then I don't feel for them. I just do what is socially required of me as a son/brother/friend/relative.

The only thing I sense are the tangibles that are directly or indirectly involved in the aforementioned routine.

*shrug*
*a slight maneuver of the head from left to right*
*a stare into blank space*

PS: This has got nothing to do with Married Man. He may have been a contributing factor but there is bigger picture involved. One I can't seem to paint or picture...