Since December 2016

Since December 2016, I've hated every single big life decisions I've made.

Regrets; that's all I've had the past three years.

Now more than ever, I wish I was straight and cis-gendered.

NOW more than ever.

Because life would have been so much, pun intended, straight forward if I was...

There are silver linings.

They do outweigh everything else.

But it's a shitty life to live for those silver linings.

It's ok.

There's still a sliver of hope that things might get better.

Just a sliver...

Mascara

Everyone who's loved makeup has had this memory...

Playing with their mom's or aunt's or even older sister's makeup. The difference with a girl and boy would be that the boy, more often than not, did it when no one was around.

I was once that boy. Both in my mom's and my aunt's makeup.

Now the tables have turned.

I have more makeup than my mom, that aunt, a couple more aunts and a couple of cousins put together do (perhaps even more).