Let Me Re-Introduce Myself...

Most of my best friends know the existence of Just Me. 

However, I am aware not all read, follow or constantly keep themselves updated.

And guys, if you're reading this right now, no worries! Seriously! It's ok! 

I completely understand if you guys don't. Some of you are married, in a relationship, have crazy jobs and schedules and really going through some tough situations. I don't want to pretend to comprehend your situations and so it's ok!

For those of you who decided to stop by to see how it's been going here or you just always read my entries. First of all, thank you. And second of all, this is probably the single most important post I've published here. 

This post is just so you're eased into this revelation.

The last post I acknowledged a semblance of this was here...

https://hansondaren.blogspot.com/2017/06/im-no-man-i-aint-woman-either.html

So here it is...

I am non-binary.

This means I am not a cis-gendered male. Which also means I am transgender (which is an umbrella term for anyone that do not identify with their gender assigned at birth). 

Did you know what exactly I felt typing that out...Imagine (if you were ever in love) the sweetest thing your SO did for you and felt that warm fuzzy feeling. Yes, that, I felt that.

Every time I visited a temple for about 3 or 4 years now. and felt like I may not belong because I wasn't a regular person, I tell myself with fierce fervour, "நான் திருநங்கை டா!!!" ("Naan thirunangai da!" translation, "I'm trans woman da!"). I only use the term trans woman because there isn't an equivalent in Tamil for a non-binary trans individual. And although I am not in a saree, or an Indian outfit catered to femininity, no one can tell me otherwise. 

Now I just want to tell people I love and that I've previously come out to as gay. 

My preferred pronouns are "they", "their", "them". Being called/referred to as "he/him/his" is just unthinkable to me now. I am not saying you all need to get this right, right away, but an attempt to try and use my preferred pronouns is highly appreciated.

Just Me had to be the first to know.

Now MORE than ever I am happy I have Just Me.

I am still gay as in I am still attracted to men. I believe that using the term gay when you're non-binary and assigned male at birth is valid.

No, I am not transitioning because everyone's trans experience is unique. If it's not too much for you to comprehend, not all trans women need to medically transition to make them a "qualified" trans women. Every trans experience is unique to the individual. All that said, I am not a trans woman and I  also don't identify as a man. And even that does not make me any less transgender.

In safe spaces (which is basically nowhere in the country I live in) I'd totally wear makeup, heels and carry a purse. On a scale of Jonathan Van Ness to Conchita Wurst, I'd be right in the middle! And sometimes I might want to be Adam Lambert too! And I'd never wear skirts not least because I'm terrified of twirling and showing off more than I intend to. Chief of reasons, however, is not really liking it on me. And I say that from experience.