America!!!

They have finally done it huh!

Recognition of same sex marriage across the nation!

In the words of the first supermodel drag queen, RuPaul Andre Charles;

EVERYBODY SAY LOVE!!!

Dear Just Me

Dear Just Me, 

There's been another death in the family.

Another male relative.

Although we're not as closely related as I was with Madam K or with Madam R's brother, he was close to the family.

I offer my solemn prayers for his soul.

Take this soul into your loving arms God, and take away the pain and sorrow.

Make it yours or send it off safely into the next birth with ease.

Om Shanthi Shanthi Shanthi.

This Just In

I just finished chatting with a guy on a popular gay dating website.

It was going well until I realised that I hadn't asked him that pivotal question.

"Are you married?"

Of course!

He is!

And he says, "tell me your story".

Pretty smart ass isn't it? I think he thinks I am one of those emotionally broken person that would cave in when someone shows interest.

And so that's why I decided to write this blog post.

Here was my reply. 

There isn't really much of a story with the married guy. I was involved with him a couple of years ago and he kind of ignored me after I actually met the rest of his family. I was never in love with him or anything. But I was pissed. I got over it. No big deal.

Generally speaking, if you do have a wife and perhaps even a child or children, imagine if the thought of your child creeps into your head when you are inside another guy. That pang of guilt. How does one survive that? Or is there no guilt. And if there isn't guilt, I am even more flabbergasted! How can you not feel guilty?

The real story is, I was in love before, with a straight guy who treated me like a wife rather than a boyfriend and it was nice right until he fell in love with a woman and started ill-treating me. He would verbally abuse me and many times not talk to me. Emotional blackmail etc etc.... 

He wanted a girlfriend, a marriage, a family and he wanted me too. How is that fair to me? So I left him. But the catch here is that, I felt guilty when I was having sex with other men long after I left this guy. And it baffles me how any married men, who have children on top of it can imagine being involved with someone other than that very woman that has given him a gift of a child. How?

I think this is going to be my standard reply to every married men on that gay dating website that is looking for sex outside their marriage.

Every one of them that messages me that is.

Of course he was pissed and he replied me something along the lines that I was living in a dream world and too much drama etc.

EVIL EVIL ME!!!

MUAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

How I Fared In Drag

Well, the play is over and with it, a fulfillment of one of my life-long, must-do thing; getting into drag.

From audience responses and from what some of my friends say, I apparently, did well. In fact, my first appearance fooled some members of the audience until I began talking. The director told me that a number of people that did not know me thought I was a woman, until of course they heard my voice. He attributed it to my makeup and my first costume. I was kind of flabbergasted and frankly chose not believe it until Cookies and Cakes reaffirmed. He and Peter Pan (a new character on Just Me that I have known and been close friends with since kindergarten but did not become extremely close to until recently) were there to watch my performance. Cookies and Cakes has been a long time cheerleader for my getting into drag and I knew he wouldn't miss for the world!

(content is not an accurate reenactment)

Cookies and Cakes: It was so good!
J: You'll obviously knew my first appearance already right since I have already shared it with you.
Peter Pan: Ya, and when you spoke in that husky voice people started laughing.
Cookies and Cakes: *looks to Peter Pan* No, people actually thought that he was a woman.
J: WHAT THE......???!!!!!!
Cookies and Cakes: YES!!! People thought you were a woman. I dunno how, perhaps your makeup and that outfit but a lot of people in the audience thought you were a woman until you started talking.
J: Are you kidding me????!!!!!!!!! *still in disbelief*
Cookies and Cakes: No, seriously! You did!!!

Such validation! No wonder Mr. P "raised" for me! Now I really know I confused him! HAHAHA!!! Good to know!

GOOD

TO

KNOW!!!

I Got A Wig!

Yes!!!

I thought things would be get done for us cast members.

When the director told me to get into drag without a wig, I was pissed!!!

So I went ahead and collected my piggy bank savings (that was supposed to be a makeup haul) and got myself a wig.

Yes, we are still on that little acting stint of mine.

On an irritating note, I dreamed about Mr. P again.

This time it was me seeing him sick and comforting him.

I wonder what triggers these dreams.

Must be my subconscious.

Because I know I am not consciously thinking of him.