Achieving a recent positive milestone in life meant, or so I thought, that I wouldn't need the ill-advised coping mechanism I picked up not too long ago.
But as of that particular event, which was just over a month ago, I have still resorted to said coping mechanism. Twice.
And no, it was never a daily affair, even prior to the uplifting milestone. Not that it can't be done daily but if I did perform it daily, it would've meant that I legitimately needed DIRE intervention. That being said, twice in a month is still plenty.
I know what triggered it but I didn't realise that the trigger would have had as much weight anymore considering the aforementioned milestone event seemed like it lifted off at least half the proverbial load I bear.
Maybe the landmark event wasn't as effectual as I thought it would be.
Maybe I still bear most of the weight having only lost but a fraction of it.
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