I Still Miss Him...

I still miss him...

Not in the sad depressed sort of way but in a more, I wish 'WE' hadn't been beyond not salvageable. Not that I am hoping for it to ever happen again.

I drove down to his grandmother's place earlier, just to re-visit that place where I had been come part of his family...

The front passenger seat of my parents' car which I drove down had previously been heated by the warmth of his buttock. How that drove me nuts when I used to think about it over a year ago... He always, ALWAYS took the privilege of having that seat despite me having driven other friends of ours in that car.

All that seems so distant.

I never expected him to be in my past...

Turns out, his family misses me. I was told by my neighbour from my current aboding varsity that he knows Mr. P.

This happened over a week ago.

It seems that this neighbour's girlfriend knows Mr. P's family. How that connects; the details are very vague. But he told me to get in touch with Mrs. GE (a.k.a Mr. P's mom). He also ended the conversation like this; 'rindu kat u kot' - maybe she misses you...

When I hear things like this, all I can do is stare at blank space reminiscing whatever memories we have had together, take a deep breath and smile followed by a faint giggle.

You don't just rid of all the memories you've had with a person you spent 1 and half years of your life together with, practically 24/7. Moreover if you have loved him/her.

All you can do is carry them with you scattering a little away as time goes by hoping that one day you may empty that baggage and find a new one to fill memories with...