Another Quickie

Yes, it is one of those days where I have to just shout it out that I've done something. I got a 350 ml bottle of cheap liqueur; whisky called  John William. Prettty impressive a name huh?? It's MYR 13.00 a bottle if you must know. So there it goes, Hdaran isn't all that impressive as he may sound, or probably isn't at all...

I drank, #1 a bottle of cheap liqueur because I didn't have much cash at my disposal. #2, I drank because I wanted to know if I really, still, had feelings for Mr. P. Turns out, I am just lonely (definitely, because I AM typing this under 38% alcohol influence and mind you the 'Backspace' button seems like a revelation). For me, at this point, anyone will do, really, anyone brown. But then again, I stand by my approach that promiscuity is like abrasives; it does nothing than to deepen that void of missing hugs and kisses.

And I also stand by my point that judgement is only God-worthy. No one single man (unless he's been truly God-enlightened) can judge another. NO ONE!!! Which is why I write about this shallow endeavour of mine freely and honestly (man, self incrimination; I just judged myself!!!).

I really do miss the warmth of blood and flesh (please, not literally) pressed against mine. The feeling of belonging it provides and the true lust-less truth it is most often, all about. More than the satisfaction it provides, the truth about this is that it is nothing more than Maya (from my reading about Holy-Men and enlightenment of God). At nadir (at least almost), I have discovered that I have been put in circumstantial adversity to be-rid of my lust, anger and emotional turbulence. I have also been through zenith (again, just close to) and I can safely say it is nothing less than The Truth...

Man, even I am bored of my preaching!!!