Goals To Achieve by 40

Watching Kathleen Lights' (popular beauty YouTuber) shoe collection video kinda shoved me into a shoe collection watching frenzy and one name keeps shouting at me. Louboutin. And then this idea formed in my head. Goals to achieve by my next age milestone. FYI, I am 30. SO next age milestone, 40.

So here goes.

Things to achieve before 40 (in no priority order).

1. Own a pair (at least!) of Christian Louboutin.

2. See the Eiffel Tower (visit France, that goes without saying).

3. Own a house (whether I live in it or not is another question).

4. Odissi graduation (if my knee condition allows it).

5. Visit Orissa and watch odissi performances (many many odissi performances).

6. See Christ the Redeemer in Rio!

7. Have dinner at a Michelin star restaurant.

I'll keep updating this list as I go.

And, we'll check back in a decade shall we... 

Till then I'll find a way to attach this page to my sidebar as a constant reminder.

My Recent Quest

I finally got down to some action with the weight loss.

When I posted on June 23rd about the passing of a relative I was down with diarrhea. It went on for a few days and I lost a whole kg from not being able to sustain food. Something clicked in me because I had taken a break from eating rice. People are commonly prescribed to eat porridge when having diarrhea. Porridge is on a list (albeit a short one) of food I simply cannot ingest for the sole fact that it tastes horrible to me. So I resorted to bread.

And that somehow lit a lightbulb.

I cut rice out of my diet.

No no! I didn't cut out carbohydrate. I cut out rice.

Huge difference.

Not on an Atkins diet here.

I compensate by consuming large amounts of vegetables and I am also slowly avoiding anything fried.

I have perhaps 4 slices of bread per day but avoid white bread.

I also still enjoy a cup of tea in the evening lightly sugared.

I also enjoy alcohol every now and then, sparingly.

I also do not completely turn myself of cakes and pastries but again, the word for me is sparingly.

The result?

Since June 23, I have lost 10kgs!

WHA---??!!!!!!!!!!

Oh wait, did I also tell you I have started jogging and can now (from when I started at barely 500m), jog a whole 2 kms without stopping? I am slow but surely getting there!

Soon I'll take on the world! Metaphorically speaking of course... >.<

Hahahaha!!!

Short Story

If you're a straight acting Indian gay man in Malaysia, you get married.

You fuck your wife thinking of a dude.

You sleep with men and suck dick behind your wife's back.

-The end.

Obviously not going to happen to me.

If it does I got people to kill me.

Dear Just Me

I am FREAKING SICK of Dear Just Mes!!!

The late Madam K's younger brother has passed on.

He was a bachelor, a drunkard and had trouble staying in one place.

The niece that was nice enough to take care of him had told us about his shenanigans when we visited  a couple of months ago (they live in a different state). 

"He was actually ok, until he started getting drunk and wandering off. He would get his monthly money from welfare and would end up spending the money on cheap alcohol and start wandering around aimlessly. We have found him several times, all dirty and smelly, and we'd clean him up, feed him, and take care of him but as soon as he gets his money he would go back to his old habits and go missing again."

He apparently met with an accident having wandered off and was taken to the hospital where he was recognised by a friend of my aunt's (dad's cousin) husband.

He passed away in the hospital just in time for my aunt to get there to proceed with funeral arrangements.

I only remember him from my childhood. He was a very nice person who had a good ability to tie flower garlands; the ones used for weddings and for deity statues. Since he didn't children of his own he adored all his grandchildren, grand-nieces and -nephews.

Sad ending for someone who could have had a good life.

Nevertheless, I pray for his soul, for he too was your child God. Take this soul into your arms and give him resolution. 

Hari Om Tat Sath.

Aum Shanthi Shanthi Shanthi...

Movies

I am on this quest to educate myself as much as I can on everything that is iconic and pop-culture related to being transgender, gay, drag queen and everything else adjacent. In line with that pursuit I back tracked iconic movies related to the subject and since about 5 years ago have been on the quest to watch them all.

I was inevitably linked from one article to another and so on and so forth until I finally stumbled upon Rupaul Andre Charles; the glamour queen whose music video in the 90s made waves. I was inspired and I watched several interviews he did and he of course referenced some of his favorite iconic movies. One of them was the documentary Paris is Burning.

I finally watched it just a few days ago and boy was it an experience.

First of all, fashion in the 80's, one word, CRAZY!

And the gay community in New York in the 80s, wow, a spectacle!

This is one of those movies people should watch just to get the feel of how the most 'out' gay community was, in the 80s when LGBT people were still being teased, taunted, assaulted and even killed. It was a journey of sorts.

In that quest I have also watched other movies; some of which I can't recall at this instance but what I remember I have listed down below;

To Wong Foo, Love Julie Newmar
-This movie was a little bit of a stretch but it was entertaining; seeing Wesley Snipes and Patrick Swayze being fabulous was reason enough to watch!

The Adventures of Priscilla, Queen of the Desert
-The famed Matrix antagonist is a drag queen in this movie! Definitely iconic status!

The Birdcage
-Nathan Lane's work was definitely praise-worthy!

Pink Flamingos
-Sit through this and not flinch and I'll salute you!

Fire
-Shabana Azmi and Nandita Das, one huge step for Indian LGBT community!

I Love You Phillip Morris
-Jim Carrey; enough said.

WOW!!!

I've been a little late to catch up on the Bollywood movie series Dhoom.

Truth be told, I have yet to even watch the first one through.

Watching a BuzzFeed video about Americans trying to learn Bollywood dancing *eye rolls* made me hungry for some proper Bollywood dancing.

My current obsession is Sheila Ki Jawani, after which I was directed to another video titled something along the lines of Dhoom Machale 3.

I watched; jaw to my neck!

KATRINA KAIF!!!!

WHAT THE ----!!!

No wonder people call her a bombshell.

That bitch can dance!!!
And her shoes!!!
Those outfits!!!

Go find and watch the video on YouTube!

I have a renewed passion for weight loss and getting into shape!

Ouh Dang, I Missed It...

I just realised that Just Me turned 9 this year. However, I do think the the 10 posts from 2006 to 2009, although just as important, was too scarce to include. 2009 was completely empty!!! So, in actuality Just Me is 5 years old, initiated on the 23rd of April 2010. Dang! I missed our anniversary!

Started as "Optimistic Always" (in 2006), it was changed, on the 1st of August 2011, to "Just Me". Come on, I was just coming into adulthood when I started!!! Jeez, if I had kept that, contrast between name and content would have been so jarring!!!

So it has been 5 years huh...

5 years of all my deep dark secrets.

5 years of the worst heartbreak of my life.

5 years of some of the best, most poignant moments in my life.

5 years of finding myself and positive revelations aplenty.

Goals setting, cigarette quitting, odissi dancing, female clothing wearing, heartbreak dealing, overseas travelling, friends loving, weight losing, weight gaining.....

....years of my life.

Unlike a line from my first post in 2010 (the revamped version of Just Me);

"... ... ... ... ... ... I remember writing down that life’s been a rollercoaster ride previously in my entries… How wrong was I then??? But poor me…I didn’t know better." 

I fervently expect another thrill ride all the way to 2020!!!!!!!!!

So, Just Me, are you ready for another thrill ride through 2015 until 2020, when we celebrate our 10th anniversary???

Let's do this!!!

Let's go grab life by the balls!!!!!!!!!

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PS: Happy Belated Anniversary Just Me...

Ooooffff!!!

I think enough with the morbid on Just Me and let's put a little sizzle into it.

Inspired by blogger William (thanks for the idea).

I am sharing my first ever porn star crush.

Alex fucking Marte!!!

Oooooffff!

I wanna smell him so bad!!!

Pictures by https://facecipl.wordpress.com/

God, I want him to give me a private strip show!!!

Dear Just Me, REALLY???

Dear Just Me,

Another death!

I mean really???

Sigh...

Unlike the previous soul, this person wasn't very close to our family but related closely (does that make sense?).

Another funeral to attend.

Another relative passes on into the afterlife.

He was my aunt's (High Priestess' eldest sister) father in law.

He was an educated, steadfast, active, vital individual who passed at 92 years of age.

Dear God,

Take this soul into your arms and ease the pain,

Bless your child.

Amen.

Aum Shanthi Shanthi Shanthi.

America!!!

They have finally done it huh!

Recognition of same sex marriage across the nation!

In the words of the first supermodel drag queen, RuPaul Andre Charles;

EVERYBODY SAY LOVE!!!