I just realised that my blog needs revising, revamping almost, as per suggested by my “bestie”, Cookies and Cakes. I love Cookies and Cakes!!! We're soulmates but sadly our love is as platonic as it can get...
But then again, why would i???
This was me writing (about 2 to 4 years ago), and now it is still me. I like to see how things have changed and how I have matured (or maybe not)…
My last entry was, Wednesday, March 05, 2008. 2008!!!!
And it is now 23rd April 2010.
*sheds tears* I remember writing down that life’s been a rollercoaster ride previously in my entries… How wrong was I then??? But poor me…I didn’t know better. At this instance I recall an aunt of mine who had an amateur ability in palmistry. I was probably 16 approaching 17 (*Sound of Music scores start playing in the head* dum de dum de dum, Sound of Music, euphoric, dum de dum de dum), and being of that age (I do remember being a teenager with an half an innocent mind and an even more childlike demeanour, and yes, I was told that I need to grow up all the time, not literally though) I was still like a little puppy running around being cheerful, excited etc. What bullshit!!! Anyway, we, my cousins and I, took turns at the exciting prospect of having our future deciphered and even managed to laugh about it.
Cousin #1- Hahahahahaha, you gonna have two wives!!!
Cousin#2- *Slaps his forehead* Aiyo Kadavule!!! (meaning “Oh God” in the Tamil language)
Me- You like Mat Romeo la (Romeo epitomised being a romantic man surrounded by beautiful women, in a very “Malaysian”ised way, when in fact he embodied monogamy, oh Shakespeare, how I oblivious was I!!!)
I remember her words, although details were vague, but this was what came to mind…
“You will become someone successful, but you will have to go through a lot in life. You see your hands, they are not very smooth, they are bumpy and this is what it means. But don’t worry; you will lead a good life.”
Little did I know what she said was soon to materialise...
At this point I erased what I initially wrote for my blog and told myself I do not have to revisit the ghosts of my past to get a closure on them… I am writing, right here and right now, and the present moment seems too precious to be wasted on the past which should be nothing but a means to realise that our past shape us, but it is our future that we can own… I tell myself this very moment to never look back except to learn from it… and if what lies ahead is anything like what has happened then I can barely wait for it to unfold….
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