Saturday, September 14, 2013

Happy Birthday to You!

Hdaran is another year older...
Happy Birthday Hdaran...

By mid-life,
Live your life!

Soon,
Get back to passions,
Find your way back to your ghungroos,

Don't let will give way to complacency,
Strive,
In the next few weeks,
Your life would be decided...

Sincerely,
Hdaran

Tuesday, September 03, 2013

Important Not-So-Flash News Flashes #2

Post Important Not-So-Flash News Flashes was the marriage ceremony of Pseudo Lil' Miss Sunshine. Pseudo Lil' Miss Sunshine is my cousin sister who is the daughter of one of The High Priestess's sister. We (Hdaran and Pseudo Lil' Miss Sunshine) share the same year of birth.

The following were Pseudo Lil' Miss Sunshine's request from me prior to the event;

#1 Help her with selection of accessories for both her temple wedding ceremony and wedding reception dinner.

#2 Opinions and suggestions on the outfit for her wedding reception dinner.

#3 Do her makeup for the wedding reception dinner.

#4 Choreograph a dance item with the rest of my cousins for her wedding reception dinner.

#5 Assist with anything else that may need assisting prior to and during the events (both the temple ceremony and the reception dinner).

About two weeks before the date I gathered my cousins (including 2 nephews and a niece), 10 strong and sat down to discuss dance items and choreography. And then went on to choreograph and co-ordinate costumes and styling of costumes for the dance. In the midst of that, I also went around the island with her hunting for a set of accessories that perfectly matched her outfit for her wedding reception dinner.

Now, all these mundane details culminated in the excitement that peaked during the dinner.

Pseudo Lil' Miss Sunshine looked gorgeous in her outfit, kudos to me!

About two months before the event, she actually showed me a video of her fiancee's cousins dance which was completed and undergoing perfecting when at that point not even details of ours were decided upon. I promised her of a performance that would top that of her future in-laws.
And, of course, I delivered which, I daresay, blew their minds off!

The performance was in sort of a medley of three dance pieces each lasting 2 to 3 minutes long and each suited perfectly to the age of my cousins/nephews/niece. The three pieces were strung together, one group entering the stage right after the other was done, to result in one big group number.

I always knew I could do this and have, in fact, done better. But none of my relatives have ever witnessed my capabilities because my commercial dance endeavors ended with my BSc. graduation. Back in my home-state, I only ever performed odissi.

And they were awed beyond their wildest expectations. Watching the video later, I heard screams from Pseudo Lil' Miss Sunshine, loud enough to be captured by the video camera! The applauds were tremendous and the praises were abundant!

Tuesday, August 20, 2013

Important Not-So-Flash News Flashes

Just for those who've been wondering what I have been up to in the past few months...

News Flash #1

Since December the 18th, I've been busy with a whole lot of things, the first and foremost my Masters. I am now in my fourth year and I have finally got down to the last part of it. Remember when I had to start my masters from scratch, now my bench work (experimentation in the lab) has been over and done with and I have also completed another prerequisite for the submission of my thesis. It's all about getting that sucker called thesis done and I am done!

Note: The last time I was out of the country was in December 2000 when my parents took us to India for a fourteen day trip. I traveled out of the country again this year, 12 years later. TWICE!

News Flash #2

First time I ventured out of Malaysia was for a joint seminar with a certain Thailand university for the exchange and discussion of information regarding food and biotechnology; updates and new discoveries. We stayed in Hatyai. Thailand to me is a land of wonders. When a cousin of mine asked me how it was like;

Cousin : So how was Thailand la?
Hdaran : Awesome! I wanna live there!!!

Alcohol is CHEAP even in 7-Eleven!
Nothing in the Internet is censored because I tried accessing, first a gay online dating site and then a gay porn website using the hotel's wireless connection.
People are OPENLY gay! LGBTs are just another fragment of society in Thailand!
And pork EVERYWHERE!!!
I LOVE!

I went there with a Muslim university lecturer and Muslim friends so I had to refrain from indulging in alcohol. But I made it a point to try out the pork burger in MacDonalds. The Samurai Pork burger as Cookies and Cakes told me. "Porky goodness la! You must try!" and so I did. When we were allowed to do some shopping alone, I sneaked into the MacDonalds at Lee Gardens and had the Samurai Pork Burger!

Serious awesomeness!

News Flash #3

The travelling to foreign lands did not stop there.
Next up was Srilanka.
This was exciting not because it was Srilanka but mostly because of the reason I was there.

The dance school I am affiliated with has branches in several other countries besides Malaysia (4 branches in Malaysia; Coimbatore, India; Perth & Adelaide, the latter being the latest addition, Australia; Singapore; and; Colombo, Sri Lanka). Some might have already guessed which performing arts institution I am referring to.

Annually, the birthday of our founder is celebrated, in turns, by one of these centers in a spectacle so beautiful that one would be lucky to be a part of it or even witness the event. This year the odissi group was chosen (over baratanatyam and other performing arts groups) to represent the center I am currently affiliated with. I was chosen alongside 5 other female dancers. Only 4 of us actually made the trip. And we were in mostly Colombo, the largest city in which the capital of Srilanka, Sri Jayawardenapura-Kotte is situated.

We hardly had time to indulge in sightseeing, but managed souvenirs shopping.
We took in what we could inside the vans and mini-buses that were assigned for us within the distances we traveled.
I saw colourful auto-rickshaws, abundant Buddha statues, churches, throngs of people in a wet market, their horrible traffic conditions and sometimes narrow roads.
I also saw deliciously gorgeous Srilankan men and equally beautiful Srilankan women, high-end restaurants, bars, lounges and clubs which bear testament to the night life of their rich and well-to-do, KFCs, MacDonalds, Pizza Huts, shopping malls, all were sights not unforeseeable yet still managed to excite us.
We spoke to the locals there whom were more than merely surprised at our command of the Tamil language.
They were also surprised that we have provisions in our country (which for them was a far away land called Malaysia, hardly seemed like a place for Indians let along Tamils to flourish) for preserving our Tamil/Indian heritage.
We were surprised that they spoke more Tamil than we had anticipated.
And that they spoke it so beautifully it could have been carefully scripted.
We were surprised that they dressed more in pants, T-shirts, shirts, skirts, shorts, rather than dhotis, sarees and Punjabi suits.
But we could always tell who were foreigners (us) and who were locals (them).

It was an experience I would treasure for the rest of my life.

Our odissi performance received rave reviews.

I was a stranger upon entering this foreign land with even the Malaysians presents there being foreign to me BUT when I was done with the group performance, I ceased from being foreign to everyone who witnessed us.
The plane back to M'sia.
When we were back, news came in from our teachers (whom are based in KL) that we did a wonderful job.

I think I'll leave it at that.
I've still got Pseudo Miss Sunshine's wedding story to get through and can you believe all this happened in the first half of 2013???!!!

Friday, August 16, 2013

I am in LOVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARRRRGGGGHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #4

I stumbled upon this divinely beautiful man today watching him in Hot in Cleveland.
You gotta love Betty White and Wendie Malick.
(Note: If you are still waiting for subtitles go find on Google; Hot in Cleveland).

One of the best part of the show is the eye-candy they love showing off.

I've drooled over Mark Deklin (hot lawyer), Isaiah Mustafa (hot coach), James Patrick Stuart (hot TV reporter), Jay Harrington (hot yuppie), Eddie Cibrian (hot fireman) and many others (if you're gay go look up these actors and I highly doubt you'd be disappointed; if you aren't then these people are are really good looking men) but nothing rivals (in the eyes of my beholding) this week's Pej Vahdat called Ravi!

By the way
he's 6 feet tall,
he was on several other TV shows which I didn't bother going on reading about,
and there's a serious lack of information on the world wide web about him.

Courtesy of tumblr.com 

Courtesy of buddytv.com
Courtesy of his Twitter account.
And finally (my favourite shot!), as Ravi in Hot in Cleveland's S04E20 - Cleveland Indians

ARRRRRRRRGGGGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
OOOOOOOFFFFFFFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*feeling dizzy*
*trying to stay on feet*
*faints*

Did I mention he played a straight acting gay guy 
who's in love with a wedding planner
AND he comes out to his INDIAN mom 
(with some help from Elka a.k.a Betty White of course)!!!!!
Oh Ravi, Ravi, 
I mean, Pejman!!!!

*faints again*

Thursday, August 08, 2013

What Would You?

Colourful dream last night.

I trembled...

But I was excited nonetheless...

Never thought it would ever happen again...

I already knew how I'd respond if it did...

That's the problem with having dreams like this...

The rest of my day gets fucked up...

What would you do...

If the person you gave your all to...

Comes back into your life for sex...

I'd succumb...

I still feel I would...

And that was the dream...

I had oral sex with Mr. P...

Only giving...

Like it was between the both us...

When it was "us"...

Tuesday, December 18, 2012

Dear Just Me, Mrs. GE is No More...

Mrs. GE is no more... 

Got the news earlier this morning.

Wanted to get this off my chest but didn't know where else to turn to.

I feel like I should be crying, like I should have been devastated, but I am not...

I hope that doesn't make me soulless...

Her real name was Eswari. 

Rest in peace.

May God take you with his merciful hands and show you onto a path that leads to salvation.

May the sufferings you went through as a mortal used as settled debt to cosmic karmic dues.

May you now know no pain.

May you be placed onto the Lotus Feet of the Lord.

May you experience utter bliss free from the cage that we call the body.

God have mercy on you...

This is my solemn prayer...

Thursday, November 22, 2012

Diwali 2012

The latest to hop on the bandwagon in the Tamil cinema industry is Silambarasan a.k.a Simbu. The bandwagon I am talking about is the quest for that elusive lean body with the even more elusive six pack.

Picture courtesy of Indiaglitz
Although not so apparent here, the first song successfully captured him with it (illusion of makeup or otherwise).

I am elated! Finally the faces I drool over would have matching bodies too!

As for Diwali 2012, nothing eventful but two incidents did occur.

First, mom and I visited a home for orphans. Bearing hand-me-down clothing still intact, some of which were never worn, chocolates, and cash. I only wish I wasn't so sentimental about children without parents, enough to frequently visit them.

And yes, the name missing from my blog post resurfaced. Of course I am talking about Mr. P; a name which I had made clear would still pop up in my life.
Mr. and Mrs. GE and the brother called to wish me a Happy Diwali and invite me to Peaceful Suburb for the festivities. Mr. P did too only when he did, I had a houseful of guests. And several times more on the first and second day of Diwali. As usual he wanted to meet up and invited me to his grandmothers place too. Strangely, in the past when I used to avoid him, the reason I'd most often cite is "busy la..." (an utter lie).This time around however, the text messages I received from him weren't replied and phone calls weren't answered, coincidentally enough because I was, in fact, busy! Entertaining guests or in a movie or something. 

So Happy Diwali 2012 Hdaran!!! Let this masters degree finish already!!!

Soon enough Christmas would be dawning upon us.
Can't wait! 
Maybe Cookies and Cakes would be kind enough to whip up some eggnog; which I'd gladly take with an extra generous splash of rum!

Friday, November 09, 2012

For Mr. Wink N U'll Know

I got them!!!!
I GOT THEM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
YEAY YEAY YEAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Few words can do justice to my euphoria but it is 
ABSO-FUCKING-LUTELY AWESOM-TASTIC!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
The entire set 

The bangles

Long necklace

The arm bands and the choker... All three are the same just worn at different places...

The belt!!!!!!! The odissi belt!!!!!!!!!!!!! MINE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Bengapatia!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wednesday, October 31, 2012

Trinkets and Garbage in The Shrine

Cleaning up the house can be a surprisingly thrilling experience. Now especially since everything is being unearthed and not just boxes packed and moved occasionally.

You see, The Shrine is a landed single storey terrace house with four rooms. Although a terrace house, it is a long one, so long I daresay one could jog in the house! Of the four rooms, one is Gdaran's and mine, the other is the abode of the The High Priest and Priestess. The third room is the actual shrine of the house (the altar) and the fourth WAS, much too dishearteningly, the store room. A store room which calls for the crew of Clean House to come storming in! However, with the massive renovations now done, that room has been cleaned out for The Empress Dowager (Madam R).

Oh dear God, that uproots another story digressing from this one. Oh well, you see Madam R has been living with her son's family for well over two decades when, just a few months ago, my aunt-in-law dubbed The Devil in Disguise a.k.a Madam R's daughter-in-law threw a tantrum of biblical proportions sending The High Priestess into a rage resulting in Madam R's departure from her son's family. To add further melodrama, this happened on Mother's Day! The Devil in Disguise has been verbally abusing The Empress Dowager for over two decades now, occasionally throwing a fit, forcing involvement of The High Priestess and her sisters; all because of her unspoken (oh wait, very much verbalised) hatred towards The Empress Dowager. Tamil soaps have no match for these bouts of theatrics. So now, The Empress Dowager has fittingly taken to living in her own quarter in The Shrine; the former store room. How we managed to clean that room out, I have no idea!

And we're back!

Cleaning out the store-room really disclosed things that I would have otherwise never knew still existed. Like my FUGLY batik shirt from freshman year in university; or a hideous ultramarine vest a la a wrongly up-styled Crocodile Dundee. I wore that vest over and over again during tuition classes when I thought they were in style or when my friends commented on it (owh the horror!!!). And then there was a bag full of hidden stash of my so-called 'memories', sweet wrappers from my friend's dedications in school (the ones where someone delivers it to your class and only the most popular people get them =P ); or memorabilia in the form of photo frames (too many of them), mugs, key-chains etc. And then there was a blanket belonging to Mr. P which I put away in a box together with some other things I brought back from campus three years ago. I swear it still smelled like him (dirty dirty me, eiiiiyeerrrrrrrrrr). Pictures from my childhood, pictures from my parents' childhood (Madam R looked particularly fetching and fleshy and my mom's visible buck-teeth was so obvious when she was slender which is now very conveniently hidden under her padded cheeks).

I share this particular trait with The High Priestess and The Empress Dowager; the inability to let go of material things because they bear some sort of significance.  Tattered, torn and beyond use or aesthetic value, we tend to desperately cling on to them, crippled by the fear of loss. But then, The High Priestess and I started mingling with spirituality and then we grew to realise the nature of maya (the creative objects of the Creator) and it's hold on mankind. Both of us finally began to see a clearer picture and through that we braced ourselves and started parting with these material things one by one...

All the clothes that I could no more wear or would no more wear are now stored in a box awaiting donation; including Mr. P's blanket.
All those memorabilia are waiting to be discarded, once I have a picture of each of them (still holding on in a way but isn't it the memory that counts?).
It was massive, but it was necessary.
Every time mom would decide on throwing something away, I could see a heavy heart. Yet once the actual decision was done I would see, the very next moment, a lighter spirit. One that is rid of another weight she seems to carry around.
The Shrine is now newer than ever, there isn't any reason why we shouldn't be.


My dad's memorabilia, however, found places in our spanking new shelves. The shelves were indeed designed to hold them because they fetch great stories of his extraordinary visits to many lands afar.

Miniature sculptures of the Great Wall of China and the Leaning Tower of Pisa.
His prized Matryoshka dolls and hand-painted boxes from Russia.
Dolls in dance poses from Thailand.
Miniature gondolas from Venice.
Boomerangs from Australia.
Mirror embossed Rajasthan elephant dolls.
His picture feeding a tiger cub in Sri Lanka.
Kimono clad pen dolls from Japan.
A miniature version of the original Little Mermaid on a stone; the famous story by Hans Christian Andersen from Denmark.
Miniature elephants wood sculpture from Nepal.
Wall plate sculptures of scenery from Florence.
A blown glass art in the shape of a fish from Italy (which still has a chipped off tail due to a mishap in the airport).
A key holder and an ash-tray from Mauritius.
Wood plates from the Philippines.

And I've just named a few from ONE shelf...
I used to envy Cookies and Cakes for his collection of antiques from his maternal predecessors; I always told him that his house is like a museum which hold so many wonderful artefacts. 
Then I looked again at all those little trinkets my dad bought from so many countries and how they would, in fact, qualify The Shrine as a museum of sorts.
I stood back, very much proud!

Wednesday, October 17, 2012

News Flashes

The title gave it away didn't it?

News flash #1
The shrine is undergoing some major renovations! Like a MYR 80 k worth of renovations! The Priest just got access to his retirement money and has decided he'd use it to make the shrine a place for comfortable living. Never has the shrine seen such massive change! 

News flash #2
The cousin sister whom I abhor is back from Shakespeare Land for good and with a spanking new accessory; a boyfriend (that poor man)! Now, the funny thing is I knew she was seeing this person from High Achieving Babes (I think I am renaming her to Lady Di cos that's the feeling I get from her, so regal and poised!). Pseudo Lil' Miss Sunshine's significant other is a friend's brother of Lady Di and the two of them started seeing each other well over a year ago. Pseudo Lil' Miss Sunshine only recently came out to the extended family about her 'catch'. 
So lo and behold upon her arrival the engagement ceremony was being elaborately planned! Naturally, Pseudo Lil' Miss Sunshine knew of my taste levels and asked me to help out with her sarees, hairstyle and makeup. Before I knew it, I was there on the 31st of August, actually doing her makeup! And it turned out brilliant!!! *pats on my back* 
She was so happy that she gave me small token of appreciation and booked me for her wedding and her wedding dinner.

News flash #3
I think The Wizard and I have been 'friend-zoned'. 

News flash #4
The best yet, this year for Navrathri, we are getting our own odissi accessories *heart skipping a beat*!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I could not be happier!!!!!!!!!!!