And I Thought I'd Never....

And I thought I'd never get over this!

But I did...

Like a few things vividly etched into memory, the one incident I recalled yesterday was the DAY I LOST HOPE...

I thought nothing in my life in the future would ever equal that one day, how erroneous was I...

Yesterday, if you could believe it was worse than the DAY I LOST HOPE. So by calculations, yesterday, 26th January 2012, was, by far, the worst day of my entire 26 years of life...

It was the day, like every other instance in my life, I didn't stand for what I believed in (or rather what I should have believed in).

And like every other blow I get, I got up and renewed myself.

The issue was my masters got a huge disapproval and 2 years of my work was ridiculed by a panel of observers; F**King over-achieving b@st@rds!!!

Then I got to thinking. Those @ssholes would never know anything than the PhDs and professor positions they hold. They would never know anything beyond molecules, statistics, protocols, deadlines, projects, publications, impact factors, positions, salary bla bla bla. All pursuit of never-ending worldly matters. I already know all that and more then they'll ever find out!

They'll never know fashion (have you seen what professors wear and what they look like?).

They'll never know makeup (have you seen how female professors wear makeup??)

They'll never know dance (ask them to stand 1 minute in chawka!!!).

And most importantly, no matter how religious they are, they'll never know God like I do! This, above all else is the one thing I pity those souls their bodies harbour.

And so I realised, hey, I am not as incompetent as I think I am... I am just with the wrong project!

So, Monday morning, I am going to march into my lecturer's room and tell him, GIVE ME SOME GENERIC SHIT TO DO!!! (albeit the word 'shit' of course).

This would also mean two more years of starting from scratch!

But hey, how much trouble that could be compared to the past two years?

So here's to starting over yet again.

God, give me your best shot at breaking me again!

And I'll always love you GOD!!!