If Only

 If only I'm allowed to be constantly be myself.

I am just imagining the world that would open me up to.

Even today I am reminded of the insufferably heteronormative, cisgender world I live in.

Questions of my "imminent" marriage, my singlehood and my so called should be planning for a wife cannot seem to elude my existence! Especially from older people who should probably just shut the f**k up!

So funny. All I've heard from ALL of my aunts is the constant, agonising complaints about their husbands and vice versa. And these people advocate marriage??!!!

I want to live in a world of my people. 

A world where I can wear whatever and walk however I want to.

A world where I can put on a full face of makeup and walk in heels to a lovely vegan brunch restaurant with my friends.

A world where I can get up in the morning, meditate and then cook myself a lovely meal.

A world where I can create creatively and not face prosecution for it.

It exists.

I would have to travel there.

But I love my parents too much to entertain that notion.

And I guess that's the reason Just Me exists...