My Life Just Changed All Over Again

I've spoken about being spiritual and spirituality in the past.

There's a saying in Tamil;

கற்றது கை மண்ணளவு,கல்லாதது உலகளவு.
Kattratu   kai    mannalavu        kallathathe       ulagavu

Phonetically, kattratu (learned) kai (hand) mannalavu (measure sand), kallatathe (not learned) ulagalavu (measure Earth).

What we have learned is as much as a handful of sand and what we haven't relatively equals the world.

Although I may have a little more knowledge than some people around me in terms of Hindu spirituality, I still feel like I have conquered but a tiny minuscule dot in a sea of knowledge. Not even in the field I work in, do I know as much as a dot in the vast sea of knowledge.

No one person can learn it all. If you think you have, you are inherently bigoted! Plain and simple!

With that being said, I have told Optimistic Always (then) and Just Me, more recently, that spirituality would be my ultimate goal.

I always assumed that would happen a long time into the future, in perhaps a decade or two.

In a turn of events that epitomised the saying, every cloud brings a silver lining, I am now already on that journey!

I've started meditating twice a day and my life is filled with temples, books, and movies all about spirituality, Hindu mythology and things alike!

I spend my times visiting temples these days.

I've almost completely given up on alcohol. Not by choice but by the single reason that my body is responding negatively to it! I don't get the good feeling when I am tipsy anymore. In fact, my body heats up and I feel anxiety creeping up on me when I get tipsy.

As you already know I have given up the tobacco.

And revelation; I am slowly turning to vegetarianism.

Again, it started as simply to fulfill a Thaipusam vow and then I realised how erratic I got when I do eat meat. The more I reduced meat intake, the more focused I became when I meditated and the more calm I am generally. 

Trust me, I ain't gonna turn into one of those preachy people who get all judgy when they become holier than thou!

I met up with a couple of friends of mine and happily indulged in bacon, and sniffed some unlighted cigarettes they had (it's just something I do when I miss tobacco).

I will be always the J I am. 

I am just on that spiritual journey much sooner than I anticipated, even if the events that transpired was perhaps the nastiest bout of self doubt, hatred and almost losing my mind I have ever gone through (YES, even compared to the Mr. P fiasco).

FYI, it had nothing to do with a man!