Between Fierce Allegiance and Deepening Desire

The group which I used to dance with/for when I was in the capital city during my undergraduate days is coming to the island. They would be performing for an event held at the faint imitation of the world renown Times Square in the Big Apple (don't get me wrong, I love my homeland but I feel it's just unintelligent to copy names in hopes of making it seem monumental; I'd say half of the island's population and at least a fourth of the people whom frequent the venue do not know what 'Times Square' represents). I was invited to perform as well.

Here's the thing, the dance school I am affiliated with are rather strict when it comes to their students performing outside the capacity the school allows them to. We're not allowed to use any part of the songs, and or, choreography to perform on our own unless approved by the institution and the teacher alike.

Yes, no problem, given the fact that the choreography which has been suggested by the 'ex'-dance group's creative director has got nothing to do with my dance school or its productions. The problem is, the piece has a semi-classical flair to it; involving classical dance costumes and using of the dancing bells. Hence, potentially problematic because I do not want to be accused of melodramatic charges for treason.

Indian classical dance has got a staunch upholding of the guru-sishya parampara (literally meaning, teacher-student tradition). This particular dance school more than any other (almost more than any other), enforces it, and if I may say so, fiercely. Wearing dancing bells and performing on stage without the consent of my teacher would mean, to a certain level, treachery (rather blown out of proportions but yes, more or less, to be crude; treachery). A student with ignorance for his/her guru's approval is seen ill-fitting of learning the art. This is no exaggeration!

So what do I do...??? An inner dilemma tearing me apart. A part of me wanting to avoid asking my teacher as it may suggest my tendency (no matter how trivial) for being rebellious. A trait that may be, in future scenarios, come off as a lack of discipline, arrogance even. The other half however, wants to adorn the costumes and dancing bells so badly as this chance may well take a year after the end of September (Navarathri) to come if I were to continue expressing my fierce allegiance to the dance school. The ensuing one being the 2012 Navarathri!!!

What does one do???

At times like these, I wish I was still in the capital city...