One would think that he has seen the worst of his predicaments. Sigh, it's funny how life keeps throwing things at you. But the worst has been remorse... That you could have done better, that what you're in isn't meant for you, that you'd have been far better off doing something you can actually relate to, emotionally, passionately, with no looking back on what might've been or not, that you're helpless when people need you most, that you're weak to handle all this...
Boy, i can't believe i am feeling so wretched... Inside out... and all this worrying is resulting in a major acne breakout... the worst I've seen in years...One major headache is down but there's like 999 more to go. At least that's what it feels like. What do i do??? What do i do!!!
I know what I want in life... I want a sedentary lifestyle;
Live in God's eternal blissful love;
Give life to the upbringing of an orphan in the form of an education sponsorship;
Earn a lot of dough but keep just what I need and donate the rest;
Help the needy, this being said, an array of social handicaps and real life warriors;
Own a small, quaint single story house with minimalistic yet impeccable furnishing;
To my name, a relatively well-to-do car, using it only when absolutely necessary (in an effort to reduce my carbon footprint);
Turn vegan and try and cultivate my own mini vege-garden;
Lead the healthiest possible lifestyle, with occasional exceptions i'd most definitely make for the people whom matter most to me;
Walk, if ever, and whenever i can;
Do odissi for the Love of God and dwell in its spirituality and aesthetic beauty;
Learn Salsa and Samba for the fun of it;
Pick up football;
Learn some fashion and do it for the passion (a small clientele whom come to me for special reasons; like Penang's very own Richard Rivalee);
Wear good clothes (which doesn't necessarily mean obscenely expensive trench coats and shirts tagged "YSL" or "Gucci"; excuse the cliched example);
All this while still not being a glutton for material possessions...
Isn't too much to ask is it???
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