Tuesday, December 18, 2012

Dear Just Me, Mrs. GE is No More...

Mrs. GE is no more... 

Got the news earlier this morning.

Wanted to get this off my chest but didn't know where else to turn to.

I feel like I should be crying, like I should have been devastated, but I am not...

I hope that doesn't make me soulless...

Her real name was Eswari. 

Rest in peace.

May God take you with his merciful hands and show you onto a path that leads to salvation.

May the sufferings you went through as a mortal used as settled debt to cosmic karmic dues.

May you now know no pain.

May you be placed onto the Lotus Feet of the Lord.

May you experience utter bliss free from the cage that we call the body.

God have mercy on you...

This is my solemn prayer...

Thursday, November 22, 2012

Diwali 2012

The latest to hop on the bandwagon in the Tamil cinema industry is Silambarasan a.k.a Simbu. The bandwagon I am talking about is the quest for that elusive lean body with the even more elusive six pack.

Picture courtesy of Indiaglitz
Although not so apparent here, the first song successfully captured him with it (illusion of makeup or otherwise).

I am elated! Finally the faces I drool over would have matching bodies too!

As for Diwali 2012, nothing eventful but two incidents did occur.

First, mom and I visited a home for orphans. Bearing hand-me-down clothing still intact, some of which were never worn, chocolates, and cash. I only wish I wasn't so sentimental about children without parents, enough to frequently visit them.

And yes, the name missing from my blog post resurfaced. Of course I am talking about Mr. P; a name which I had made clear would still pop up in my life.
Mr. and Mrs. GE and the brother called to wish me a Happy Diwali and invite me to Peaceful Suburb for the festivities. Mr. P did too only when he did, I had a houseful of guests. And several times more on the first and second day of Diwali. As usual he wanted to meet up and invited me to his grandmothers place too. Strangely, in the past when I used to avoid him, the reason I'd most often cite is "busy la..." (an utter lie).This time around however, the text messages I received from him weren't replied and phone calls weren't answered, coincidentally enough because I was, in fact, busy! Entertaining guests or in a movie or something. 

So Happy Diwali 2012 Hdaran!!! Let this masters degree finish already!!!

Soon enough Christmas would be dawning upon us.
Can't wait! 
Maybe Cookies and Cakes would be kind enough to whip up some eggnog; which I'd gladly take with an extra generous splash of rum!

Friday, November 09, 2012

For Mr. Wink N U'll Know

I got them!!!!
I GOT THEM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
YEAY YEAY YEAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Few words can do justice to my euphoria but it is 
ABSO-FUCKING-LUTELY AWESOM-TASTIC!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
The entire set 

The bangles

Long necklace

The arm bands and the choker... All three are the same just worn at different places...

The belt!!!!!!! The odissi belt!!!!!!!!!!!!! MINE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Bengapatia!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wednesday, October 31, 2012

Trinkets and Garbage in The Shrine

Cleaning up the house can be a surprisingly thrilling experience. Now especially since everything is being unearthed and not just boxes packed and moved occasionally.

You see, The Shrine is a landed single storey terrace house with four rooms. Although a terrace house, it is a long one, so long I daresay one could jog in the house! Of the four rooms, one is Gdaran's and mine, the other is the abode of the The High Priest and Priestess. The third room is the actual shrine of the house (the altar) and the fourth WAS, much too dishearteningly, the store room. A store room which calls for the crew of Clean House to come storming in! However, with the massive renovations now done, that room has been cleaned out for The Empress Dowager (Madam R).

Oh dear God, that uproots another story digressing from this one. Oh well, you see Madam R has been living with her son's family for well over two decades when, just a few months ago, my aunt-in-law dubbed The Devil in Disguise a.k.a Madam R's daughter-in-law threw a tantrum of biblical proportions sending The High Priestess into a rage resulting in Madam R's departure from her son's family. To add further melodrama, this happened on Mother's Day! The Devil in Disguise has been verbally abusing The Empress Dowager for over two decades now, occasionally throwing a fit, forcing involvement of The High Priestess and her sisters; all because of her unspoken (oh wait, very much verbalised) hatred towards The Empress Dowager. Tamil soaps have no match for these bouts of theatrics. So now, The Empress Dowager has fittingly taken to living in her own quarter in The Shrine; the former store room. How we managed to clean that room out, I have no idea!

And we're back!

Cleaning out the store-room really disclosed things that I would have otherwise never knew still existed. Like my FUGLY batik shirt from freshman year in university; or a hideous ultramarine vest a la a wrongly up-styled Crocodile Dundee. I wore that vest over and over again during tuition classes when I thought they were in style or when my friends commented on it (owh the horror!!!). And then there was a bag full of hidden stash of my so-called 'memories', sweet wrappers from my friend's dedications in school (the ones where someone delivers it to your class and only the most popular people get them =P ); or memorabilia in the form of photo frames (too many of them), mugs, key-chains etc. And then there was a blanket belonging to Mr. P which I put away in a box together with some other things I brought back from campus three years ago. I swear it still smelled like him (dirty dirty me, eiiiiyeerrrrrrrrrr). Pictures from my childhood, pictures from my parents' childhood (Madam R looked particularly fetching and fleshy and my mom's visible buck-teeth was so obvious when she was slender which is now very conveniently hidden under her padded cheeks).

I share this particular trait with The High Priestess and The Empress Dowager; the inability to let go of material things because they bear some sort of significance.  Tattered, torn and beyond use or aesthetic value, we tend to desperately cling on to them, crippled by the fear of loss. But then, The High Priestess and I started mingling with spirituality and then we grew to realise the nature of maya (the creative objects of the Creator) and it's hold on mankind. Both of us finally began to see a clearer picture and through that we braced ourselves and started parting with these material things one by one...

All the clothes that I could no more wear or would no more wear are now stored in a box awaiting donation; including Mr. P's blanket.
All those memorabilia are waiting to be discarded, once I have a picture of each of them (still holding on in a way but isn't it the memory that counts?).
It was massive, but it was necessary.
Every time mom would decide on throwing something away, I could see a heavy heart. Yet once the actual decision was done I would see, the very next moment, a lighter spirit. One that is rid of another weight she seems to carry around.
The Shrine is now newer than ever, there isn't any reason why we shouldn't be.


My dad's memorabilia, however, found places in our spanking new shelves. The shelves were indeed designed to hold them because they fetch great stories of his extraordinary visits to many lands afar.

Miniature sculptures of the Great Wall of China and the Leaning Tower of Pisa.
His prized Matryoshka dolls and hand-painted boxes from Russia.
Dolls in dance poses from Thailand.
Miniature gondolas from Venice.
Boomerangs from Australia.
Mirror embossed Rajasthan elephant dolls.
His picture feeding a tiger cub in Sri Lanka.
Kimono clad pen dolls from Japan.
A miniature version of the original Little Mermaid on a stone; the famous story by Hans Christian Andersen from Denmark.
Miniature elephants wood sculpture from Nepal.
Wall plate sculptures of scenery from Florence.
A blown glass art in the shape of a fish from Italy (which still has a chipped off tail due to a mishap in the airport).
A key holder and an ash-tray from Mauritius.
Wood plates from the Philippines.

And I've just named a few from ONE shelf...
I used to envy Cookies and Cakes for his collection of antiques from his maternal predecessors; I always told him that his house is like a museum which hold so many wonderful artefacts. 
Then I looked again at all those little trinkets my dad bought from so many countries and how they would, in fact, qualify The Shrine as a museum of sorts.
I stood back, very much proud!

Wednesday, October 17, 2012

News Flashes

The title gave it away didn't it?

News flash #1
The shrine is undergoing some major renovations! Like a MYR 80 k worth of renovations! The Priest just got access to his retirement money and has decided he'd use it to make the shrine a place for comfortable living. Never has the shrine seen such massive change! 

News flash #2
The cousin sister whom I abhor is back from Shakespeare Land for good and with a spanking new accessory; a boyfriend (that poor man)! Now, the funny thing is I knew she was seeing this person from High Achieving Babes (I think I am renaming her to Lady Di cos that's the feeling I get from her, so regal and poised!). Pseudo Lil' Miss Sunshine's significant other is a friend's brother of Lady Di and the two of them started seeing each other well over a year ago. Pseudo Lil' Miss Sunshine only recently came out to the extended family about her 'catch'. 
So lo and behold upon her arrival the engagement ceremony was being elaborately planned! Naturally, Pseudo Lil' Miss Sunshine knew of my taste levels and asked me to help out with her sarees, hairstyle and makeup. Before I knew it, I was there on the 31st of August, actually doing her makeup! And it turned out brilliant!!! *pats on my back* 
She was so happy that she gave me small token of appreciation and booked me for her wedding and her wedding dinner.

News flash #3
I think The Wizard and I have been 'friend-zoned'. 

News flash #4
The best yet, this year for Navrathri, we are getting our own odissi accessories *heart skipping a beat*!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I could not be happier!!!!!!!!!!!

Thursday, July 12, 2012

The Shift

I recently dissected the reason why giving up smoking was so hard.

Being always the goody-two-shoes of the family, I have always rebelled in secrecy.

Smoking was time when I'd sneak out and do something bad just so I don't feel like such a wimp.

That's somehow changed when I was recently craving a cigarette and sat down and thought to myself why.

I am going to start with a new and controlled addiction.

Alcohol!!!

Not gonna spoil my liver overdosing on it but I am getting a bottle of red wine every week and enjoy a little of it every day...

CHEERS!!!!!!!!!!!!

That reminds me I need a proper wine glass...

Thursday, June 28, 2012

A Salute To Cookies and Cakes

I hope you (CnC) do read this.

Amid the formative years of bad hairdos, unflattering wardrobe and massive self-loathing; to the self-discovering stint through many questioned morals, freshly unearthed and buried beliefs and horrific dating and sexual activities took place; to the self-assured well-grounded current state of mind;

one thing has been an underlying theme through which the worst of predicaments have yet to distort; the epic friendship of Hdaran and Cookies and Cakes.

In my mind, the monumental 21st Century Fox introduction needs plagiarising here.

During our teens it was all about our friends at school, which teacher to taunt, which club would be most popular beneficial, an enormous presence of ego and quite intriguingly a massive fallback to inferiority. The exchange of deafening secrets, the clash of opinions and the continuously recurring juvenile altercations. Cookies and Cakes and I have gone through bouts of dramas that always invariably leads to days (weeks and sometimes months) of mute acknowledgment.

Moving into our early 20's saw a new gush of switch from close proximity on a daily basis to geographical distance which spun months. Truth be told, our bickering still did persist and however subtle those waves of differences were, they seemed to be intensified multitudinously. This was those years of first loves and heart-wrenching separations all of which led to staggering self-growth. Self growth that provided significant tolerance and the much needed 'new perspective about life'. 


At the moment, well-adjusted to the current state of affairs, our bond has proved itself unshakable.

Now more than ever.

So here's to that special platonic man in my life; may we always have each other to buy one another a drink (my time will come soon enough - CnC, you should know what I mean)...


Wednesday, June 20, 2012

A New Chapter in My Life

I think it's about time I at least post an entry about this new character in my life. The Wizard.


The Wizard is a man I met through that popular gay dating website. A rare combination of an alcohol drinking, football watching, mother loving, bank personnel with (thank Heavens) a good command of the English language. He's also capable of walking amongst the popularly known group Indian men are so often associated to, the macha's. Don't be fooled though, The Wizard cooks and loves Italian.


And as with any new tale in Hdaran's life there's a catch. After 6 months of a lot of back and forth Hdaran and The Wizard have yet to meet. That's right folks.

This is also one of those elusive tales of promised monogamy without physical contact.

That far-fetched idea of distance obliterated.

That impossible notion that not seeing does not taint hope (God is of course an exception because I felt His Presence).


How all this plays out; stay tuned folks.


If this is the next big thing; Hell it better be good.


And when and what happens; you know I'll be writing in acceptable detail.


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Thursday, June 07, 2012

My First Conference

Last week I had my first taste of an organised formal meeting for discussion and exchange of ideas.

Yes, last week was my first conference in which I presented a paper...

And it was amazing!!!

Of course there were times I felt dumb but being among all the great minds in the room and coming to a realisation every now and then that I was a part of it gave me goosebumps...

Best of all, it was conducted in a hotel which hosts a restaurant well known among foodies in the island... Situated along the coastline...

I took some pictures of the food...

Grilled beef, Norwegian salmon, tiger prawns, Moroccan lamb stew, mussels in sambal. The salmon and beef were overcooked. But the others were delicious! This was the conference dinner on the first day, AFTER my presentation, so I ate without much worries... It was so satisfying... The appetizers were just as delightful. Pan-seared bluefin tuna (nice and rare), and smoked salmon!!! I forgot about taking pictures during the appetizers because I was too excited to eat!!! HAHAHAHAH!!!!

Grilled lamb chops, seafood lasagna, grilled dori fillet, sausage with cheese. The dori fillet was over-seasoned but the others were good! This was lunch, 2nd day conference...

A piece of the lamb chop in the picture above. I stood there where the chef was grilling eyeing the lambs when he noticed I was wandering and said, "There's a plateful of them there," pointing to the previous batch of grilled chops. I said, "I want them freshly grilled." He said, "Ok, how well do you want them?" I said, "As rare as you can make it." And those were the results of my request. The ones that were already cooked were just medium rare bordering on well-done. That is why I requested that the chef do a few fresh ones for me... Of course I let the meat rest before cutting into them or else it wouldn't have looked like the picture above!
YES, THEY WERE ALL BUFFET MEALS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tuesday, June 05, 2012

Malaysian Talent

Please watch this video of two Malay dancers from Aswara excelling in an Indian classical art form...