Dear Just Me

Dear Just Me,

I have no one to blame but myself for my weight and I know that.

I also know that it isn't entirely my fault that I fell into a drain and tore my meniscus.

That mishap took away the one thing that gives me the strength to wake up enthusiastically every morning; ODISSI.

It also took away from me, the ability to do physical exercise to loose weight until a point that I gave up and started eating, drinking and smoking excessively.

I also know that very few people know of my ordeal and those who don't just see what they see, a FAT guy.

They also do not know that I have quit smoking and became an occasional drinker with a two drink limit. They also do not know that I probably eat lesser than they do.

So it pissed me off when the first things my aunt #3 said to me after not having seen each other in several months was "YOU NEED TO LOOSE WEIGHT LA!" in a VERY condescending tone. I retaliated and she wasn't happy.

Things happen for a reason and if people do not understand what you are going through then they aren't worth your time. I am not about to completely write off this aunt of mine but she is one I am keeping at arm's length. I'll say my "Hi/Hello" and walk into another space. It has happened with aunt#1's family. If I can't find the distance I need, I'll reach for my phone and start continuously texting Cookies and Cakes even if he doesn't reply.

She'll be one of those people I call, worthless until proven worthwhile or otherwise.

Perhaps I'll write a list.

Worthless until proven otherwise


Thank you Just Me

Love,
J

PS: There should also be a "redundant until proven otherwise" list but the list in itself is redundant!!! HAHAHA!!!