I fear not (rats not included)

Cookies and Cakes’ clairvoyance has been sufficiently proven true.

Prediction #1: Metro Me will walk down the aisle in his birth attire. Status quo: Metro Me would love to do it.

Prediction #2: (this was more like a curse actually) My discipline teacher should just get a stroke and die leaving us in peace. Status quo: RIP Mr. What’s His Name Again???

Prediction #3: I would go on to attain a degree in biotechnology and then do my MSc, PhD, and become a lecturer against my will (I wanted to become a fashion designer). Status quo: postgraduate student, MSc. Food Technology.

Thank God he didn’t predict my marriage in the future!!! With a woman!!! God it would have been disastrous.

I tend to think a lot these days because I get so much time being alone. A year ago I could’ve never imagined myself being alone but now I love it… Being alone gives me so much time to mull over things in my life.

What will I be doing 10 years from now???

Will I find love???

Will my spiritual path bear its ultimate fruit???

Will I have a gender reassignment surgery (GRS)???

If I did have the GRS how would life be for me???

Will I still be in this country???

How much are my parents going to push me into a marriage???

Will Mr. P still be as attached to me as he is now???

So many thoughts run in my mind. So many possibilities, so many outcomes, so many decisions. Nevertheless I forbid allowing my mind to run afar. Things at hand, in present times matter most. My Masters Degree for instance, my weight loss journey and my family and friends, all these are the parts of my life currently on the top of my priority list, preceding any other miscellaneous insignificant worries.

I fear no more…

I fear not what the future holds.

I fear not what I’d lose in the future.

I fear not erroneous decisions I may formulate.

I fear not where life takes me.

I fear not.

Except rats, I fear, yes I FEAR!!!