So about two years ago parents decided to consult an expert on Hindu astrology. Hindu astrology is based on the movement of the planets, the sun and the moon and how it affects individuals via date of birth, time of birth and name (Hindus, those who practice it anyway, name their children based on astrology). It was brought upon by me being in a rut and things not going my way.
This dude we went to consult is, and I'd wager my bottom dollar, QUEER!!!!!!!!!!!!! His mannerisms and the way he side eyed me the only way a bottom could to another bottom (where I'm from at least) re-instilled trust in my gaydar.
I digress.
So he goes on to look through my charts and says that I won't have anything too bad happen to me. Basically my life will be straight forward and would not face unforeseen tragedies.
And I was like. Ah..... I see.....
So...., mentally screwed up throughout my entire life because until recently I didn't admit to myself that I am non-binary.
Being called every possible name in both the national language and Tamil for derogatory gay and trans slurs.
A straight guy using you for sexual and life favours which included money, food, and helping him with at least half his degree which is feeding him right now, just to name a few.
A couple of suicide close calls.
Self inflicted wounds.
A closeted life.
Alcohol abuse.
Depression and anxiety that sent me to the ER.
Sexually teased and molested by a cousin at 15 (who's engaged to woman now).
None of that apparently counts in Hindu astrology.
And now, I call Hindu astrology BULLSHIT!
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