This Just In

I just finished chatting with a guy on a popular gay dating website.

It was going well until I realised that I hadn't asked him that pivotal question.

"Are you married?"

Of course!

He is!

And he says, "tell me your story".

Pretty smart ass isn't it? I think he thinks I am one of those emotionally broken person that would cave in when someone shows interest.

And so that's why I decided to write this blog post.

Here was my reply. 

There isn't really much of a story with the married guy. I was involved with him a couple of years ago and he kind of ignored me after I actually met the rest of his family. I was never in love with him or anything. But I was pissed. I got over it. No big deal.

Generally speaking, if you do have a wife and perhaps even a child or children, imagine if the thought of your child creeps into your head when you are inside another guy. That pang of guilt. How does one survive that? Or is there no guilt. And if there isn't guilt, I am even more flabbergasted! How can you not feel guilty?

The real story is, I was in love before, with a straight guy who treated me like a wife rather than a boyfriend and it was nice right until he fell in love with a woman and started ill-treating me. He would verbally abuse me and many times not talk to me. Emotional blackmail etc etc.... 

He wanted a girlfriend, a marriage, a family and he wanted me too. How is that fair to me? So I left him. But the catch here is that, I felt guilty when I was having sex with other men long after I left this guy. And it baffles me how any married men, who have children on top of it can imagine being involved with someone other than that very woman that has given him a gift of a child. How?

I think this is going to be my standard reply to every married men on that gay dating website that is looking for sex outside their marriage.

Every one of them that messages me that is.

Of course he was pissed and he replied me something along the lines that I was living in a dream world and too much drama etc.

EVIL EVIL ME!!!

MUAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!