We'll Be Together....

I swore to sleep early today but it didn't happen. A little tete-a-tete with Cookies and Cakes and some blogs reading later here I am, a shy 20 minutes away from 2am.

Screw the updates I wanted to simply let my feelings flow.

*sms beeps*

Confused Gal: Senior, snr P (Mr. P) n .... (a friend of Mr. P's) got .... (a training course for school teachers).
Hdaran: So?
Confused Gal: Juz fels like telin u snr tats al. Tc
Hdaran: K. Congratulate them both on my behalf.
Confused Gal: K snr. I tel tem. Tc n sory if I had disturbd u.

If you are wondering what the heck this Confused Gal person meant, here are some interpretations;

snr = abbreviation for 'senior'
fels= it's actually feel (or rather it should be felt)

Other short message service abbreviations are probably justified. And by the way this is her best. 'Their' best actually. And by 'their' I meant a huge lot of my university-mates, Mr. P, Fuck-A-Lot, Alcohol Pre-Presentation, Life Sized Comfort and the list goes on.

After that last reply, I had forgotten about the entire thing and it popped up just a minute ago. Funny, finally thoughts of the person I so desperately wanted to get rid off is now obsolete. I am sure nightmares would shake me to the bone if ever and whenever our paths crossed, but as long as that does not happen for the next year or so I think I am safe...

Cookies and Cakes is now 400 kms apart, just like when we were a year and a half back when I was still in university. He landed a job and is living in the apartment his dad formerly occupied and currently owns. If this was to have happened a few months ago I would've been devastated. I would've lost the person I cling on to so desperately for answers. But the fear has been lifted and I am happy to see him finally at a place where he wants to be. Financial independence has been (still is) the most desperate goal both of us share. I am just a little lagging because of the current ground I stand on. A student. Nonetheless, I shall finally get my financial freedom soon enough and soar to greater heights.

Although there is no saying where our roads will ultimately lead us (every cliché personified, I know) but fear of the unknown is something neither Cookies and Cakes nor I have ever succumbed to. In our own case, we find it to be the one thing we will always look forward to. Cautious maybe but not horrified. And as much as we plan to shop in Paris, dine in Tuscany and party in New York, all insatiable thoughts of jet-setting across the globe is somehow regressed by the fact that neither of us would have as much fun without the other.

And the conclusion is made, even if it was merely window shopping in the capital city, it would suffice. A maiden step, a milestone, one inch closer to France, Italy and America. The key word here is, together.

10 years ago we wondered where we would be.
10 years from now will remain an enigma for now.
But the obvious is that, Cookies and Cakes will always be just that to me, warm, comforting with platonic orgasms that fills my heart with zest!!!