I know i have been through loads of hell 2 say this but my life seems so perfect... It is becoz it's strangely imperfect that makes it sop perfect....Besides the fact dat i'm yet 2 launch a career in fashion n i haven't found my significant half, evrything else is jus perfect for me... My studies r goin fab, mostly coz my subjects interesting... My life is so jam-packed wit stuff to do, i mean i'm in AISEC, i've agreed 2 participate in a dance competition on a local cable TV ( don't be deceived, in Malaysia, those who appear on the local cable TV, Astro, acquire as much fame as any1 on national TV would), my studies have heightened in2 more intellectual levels, i'm in a major project organised anually by my varsity's Tamil Language Society, n i'm in my residential college 'boria' team (boria is a dance originating from the state of Penang, in Malaysia).
Wat else cud i possibly ask for....
Life is good...
Life is tough...
Life's a bed os roses...
Soft petals, enchanting perfume, thorns and all...
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
Wednesday, July 26, 2006
relationships
Ever since i set foot onto MU relationships have been intensifying... One significant person in my life has got to be my godbrother...
He is wat i call God's send to me....
My almost everything now... I say 'almost' coz obviously u have parents n family to think of...and even if he is important to me, nothing would ever match the amount of love and attention my parents had put in 2 bring me up...
I've known him for barely4 months... bt he knows things bout me which took me years to confess to my best friends.....
He is sumthing i always wish i had... Everything and more... He has satisfied my every need for a person i want to call my own...But in a strange way he was never the person i imagined i would have been involved with in the sense that he was someone so opposed to who i am... Let's put it straight, he is a regular heterosexual guy, overweight, speaks the classic Tamil most Indian heterosexual guy in Malaysia would, hates shopping, speaks poor English although to certain extend has the confidence to pull of an image what others might pass off as comprehensible, and yet some others even good, dresses ever so typically (boot leg pants and the more economical version of British India look alike tops) n wears loafers like dats the only thing dat would ever compliment those flared pants...
Let's look at myself...I, i had an awfully complicated love life, wif an even more complicated sexual life, know more bout fashion n makeup than anyone around me will ever be able to find out, I know i have o good command of the English language, even if i'm not perfect, i strive for perfection, even if i speak Tamil it has never been my best doing, i love shopping, i can make women's jewellery, n i strive to dress as differently as i can den other regular 'COOL DUDE' wannabes.....
BUT
What has been absolutely intriguing is dat our relationship has been one of those made-in-heaven bonds....I had an instant liking to him as he had 2 me... It all seems like a fairy tale story now wen i look back at it making me think of d movie A Cinderella Story starring Hillary Duff,....i quote..."....fairy tales don't only come true in books, they come true in real life too....."
It has been a fairy tale come true for me...N i'll treasure it forever...
Cheesy, but that's d best way I can put it....
I have no regrets
N i am looking forward 2 see where this relationship is goin 2 take me to...
He is wat i call God's send to me....
My almost everything now... I say 'almost' coz obviously u have parents n family to think of...and even if he is important to me, nothing would ever match the amount of love and attention my parents had put in 2 bring me up...
I've known him for barely4 months... bt he knows things bout me which took me years to confess to my best friends.....
He is sumthing i always wish i had... Everything and more... He has satisfied my every need for a person i want to call my own...But in a strange way he was never the person i imagined i would have been involved with in the sense that he was someone so opposed to who i am... Let's put it straight, he is a regular heterosexual guy, overweight, speaks the classic Tamil most Indian heterosexual guy in Malaysia would, hates shopping, speaks poor English although to certain extend has the confidence to pull of an image what others might pass off as comprehensible, and yet some others even good, dresses ever so typically (boot leg pants and the more economical version of British India look alike tops) n wears loafers like dats the only thing dat would ever compliment those flared pants...
Let's look at myself...I, i had an awfully complicated love life, wif an even more complicated sexual life, know more bout fashion n makeup than anyone around me will ever be able to find out, I know i have o good command of the English language, even if i'm not perfect, i strive for perfection, even if i speak Tamil it has never been my best doing, i love shopping, i can make women's jewellery, n i strive to dress as differently as i can den other regular 'COOL DUDE' wannabes.....
BUT
What has been absolutely intriguing is dat our relationship has been one of those made-in-heaven bonds....I had an instant liking to him as he had 2 me... It all seems like a fairy tale story now wen i look back at it making me think of d movie A Cinderella Story starring Hillary Duff,....i quote..."....fairy tales don't only come true in books, they come true in real life too....."
It has been a fairy tale come true for me...N i'll treasure it forever...
Cheesy, but that's d best way I can put it....
I have no regrets
N i am looking forward 2 see where this relationship is goin 2 take me to...
Sunday, June 11, 2006
Melancholy
Melancholy dats how i 'm feeling now... Pretty 'blegh'... I duno how i am gona cope next time on..during my next semester break dat is...Being in d capital of Malaysia has been pretty interesting n my life in da varsity was absolutely a blast!!! I had a great time... Not all da time but life was as as a roller coaster ride as i got!!!
Dancing was great, especiallty wen i was in da spolight n evryone who saw me dance practically went, 'who is dat guy who danced' etc... It was very uplifting n refreshing. i knew i dance well but i didn't know i had d extra flair to it...
Dancing was great, especiallty wen i was in da spolight n evryone who saw me dance practically went, 'who is dat guy who danced' etc... It was very uplifting n refreshing. i knew i dance well but i didn't know i had d extra flair to it...
Monday, May 22, 2006
its been long
Its been a long time but i am glad to be blogging AGAIN...
Ok...i wanted to write about my orientation days in university...One long month of suffering in seniors' room...It was hell..N to think that my badge of boys did not get it as worse as my seniors... I duno how i went thru it...but i sure would have killed half my brains cells thinking bout it IF i had found out about it any sooner then wen it happened... But coming back to my initial point, i really would not like to write about it.
Ok lets go on to my experience as a first year... Its juz like how Emma put it when describing Harry Potter and The Goblet of Fire, the fourth instalment of the Harry Potter, there wasn't a dull moment in my life...not one...Even as boring as lectures may seem it wasn't dull...There was always sumthin interesting, always...
GOD where do i start?? Ok Lets start wif dancing... Tonnes of that!!! Even making front page of a daily Malaysian paper... I was afraid dat id neva b able 2 show off dis talent of mine wen i was in school, i mean opportunities came n went but i seemed to hide myself in the shadow neva grasping the opportunities that came by... N wen i left school i swore i'd neva let an opportunity to shine pass by... N voila...i was doin it!!!
ok...have 2 attend a call...(my godbro)
Ok...i wanted to write about my orientation days in university...One long month of suffering in seniors' room...It was hell..N to think that my badge of boys did not get it as worse as my seniors... I duno how i went thru it...but i sure would have killed half my brains cells thinking bout it IF i had found out about it any sooner then wen it happened... But coming back to my initial point, i really would not like to write about it.
Ok lets go on to my experience as a first year... Its juz like how Emma put it when describing Harry Potter and The Goblet of Fire, the fourth instalment of the Harry Potter, there wasn't a dull moment in my life...not one...Even as boring as lectures may seem it wasn't dull...There was always sumthin interesting, always...
GOD where do i start?? Ok Lets start wif dancing... Tonnes of that!!! Even making front page of a daily Malaysian paper... I was afraid dat id neva b able 2 show off dis talent of mine wen i was in school, i mean opportunities came n went but i seemed to hide myself in the shadow neva grasping the opportunities that came by... N wen i left school i swore i'd neva let an opportunity to shine pass by... N voila...i was doin it!!!
ok...have 2 attend a call...(my godbro)
Saturday, April 08, 2006
The little complaints in life
I know i know...one with his blog entitled 'optimistic always' shouldn't have complains...But alas, i ain't GOD...
I'd really really love a few more grooming products for myself... And a few more designer labels (if not designer labels...even brand names will do) in my wardrobe... And a good designer perfume n a boyfriend. But u know wat...i'm really really content with my life...I have goals already set, i am always waiting for a good opportunity to come around to seize it and make good use of, i'm juz feeling so great.....I mean i am not in da best of situations but i am definitely making da best out of it...I've really had enough with whiners...i see so much of them in my life, daily, but none of them seem to realise wat they've already got, n how lucky they r to have it...people constantly receive all these motivating messages via mail but they still seem to sulk wen they face problems...problems are issues that win u over causing u anxiety... If u deal wif them in a proper manner issues will never progress to become problems. Life is all about progress, unless u are destructive u rarely retrograde...Some people see it other peole learn it...
Ok...I feel that's enough preaching for the day.. I wanted to blog with succesion from my first post actually, but i think i've done enough blogging for the day...lets save it for 2moro.
I'd really really love a few more grooming products for myself... And a few more designer labels (if not designer labels...even brand names will do) in my wardrobe... And a good designer perfume n a boyfriend. But u know wat...i'm really really content with my life...I have goals already set, i am always waiting for a good opportunity to come around to seize it and make good use of, i'm juz feeling so great.....I mean i am not in da best of situations but i am definitely making da best out of it...I've really had enough with whiners...i see so much of them in my life, daily, but none of them seem to realise wat they've already got, n how lucky they r to have it...people constantly receive all these motivating messages via mail but they still seem to sulk wen they face problems...problems are issues that win u over causing u anxiety... If u deal wif them in a proper manner issues will never progress to become problems. Life is all about progress, unless u are destructive u rarely retrograde...Some people see it other peole learn it...
Ok...I feel that's enough preaching for the day.. I wanted to blog with succesion from my first post actually, but i think i've done enough blogging for the day...lets save it for 2moro.
Tuesday, April 04, 2006
Who's gona stop me??
Ok....my 2nd post....well wat do i say....i always get thrown into problems...even lately i have been freaking over a lot of things. Countless, COUNTLESS problems!!!! GOsh...but u know i like 2 keep it goin...be optimistic...be juz enthusiastic n put one step ahead after another...
One thing is for sure....i have never regretted wat i have n wat i am goin thru...it seems dat evrything dat is happening 2 me is like alll for my own good... EVERYTHING!!! I have like tonnes of probs 2 face n i have no worries... sum people go, u have juz ### days left n u haven't finishd ur assignment???...I go, don't worry...i know i'll do it eventually....
Life's Great...N i am living it 2 da fullest... Hours in air conditioned comp lab wif no one 2 ask me 2 stop...not dat i miss my mom, u'd know if u'd read my previous post..
OK gtg
Catca in my next post
One thing is for sure....i have never regretted wat i have n wat i am goin thru...it seems dat evrything dat is happening 2 me is like alll for my own good... EVERYTHING!!! I have like tonnes of probs 2 face n i have no worries... sum people go, u have juz ### days left n u haven't finishd ur assignment???...I go, don't worry...i know i'll do it eventually....
Life's Great...N i am living it 2 da fullest... Hours in air conditioned comp lab wif no one 2 ask me 2 stop...not dat i miss my mom, u'd know if u'd read my previous post..
OK gtg
Catca in my next post
Wednesday, March 29, 2006
Blogging..finally
Finally i'm blogging...wonder y i neva thought of this b4...I mean i have like 10 books full of my so-called 'emotional pourings' and 'details of my life'... Call me in vain but i love 2 read my writings. so wen my best fren popped up in my messenger online list n messaged me saying he has started blogging i seized d opportunity...!!! WoooHooo...yea me!!!
I'm siting down here on wats seems 2 b juz another mundane Wednesday morning 2 others... but not 4 me...(gosh seems like da intro of a consumer good add)....Blek!!!
Everythings seems 2 b ok but as petty as this may seem.....'MY MP3 PLAYER IS INFECTED BY VIRUS!!!!!!' booooohooohoooo..... i really am genuinely distracted from enjoying da fact dat i'll b at home 4 da weekends mainly b'coz dat mp3 player cost my mom a good RM200 (hey they earn their money ok!!! if u were workin in a hospital washin off shit out of people's asses u'd know how much ur earnings r worth). LOVE MY PARENTS!!!!!!! n evrytime i feel dat they r gettin on my nerves i juz remember one terrible week of my life...Haluansiswa... (i do realise da blank faces on prospective readers of my blog but any UM student shudn't...yup i am a UM student) which was supposed 2 b where my story shud've initially started...
Ok here goes...
Haluansiswa
In a nutshell, put sleep deprivation, once in 2 days or a day of showering, mocking (actually it was more like shoutin AND mocking) from people u have barely known, doin cheers until u loose ur voice, bein stripped of ur hps on da 1st day of varsity life, boring seminars, stripped of all da pampering u get at home, all alone in a place of new faces, AND homesickness in a week of torture n dats HALUANSISWA, da one-week orientation for all freshmen of Universiti Malaya!!! But as brutal as it may seem (although i realise sum might beg to differ), it was actually necessary coz when I, particularly, was through it i thought it was such an excruciating week of my life dat u actually become a lot stronger n have a lot of respect for urself. I also realised den dat I LOVE MY PARENTS more den anything or anyone else in da WORLD!!! I feel tears forming di very instance typing dis down. I am da luckiest person on Earth 2 b blessed with such parents n even more luckier coz i found out juz how much i LOVE dem b4 they are called back by Mother Earth...
Ok dats it for my 1st blog ever!!!
PS: i am really sorry if u think i'm lame but i really don't care.....
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